gladiatorseatfire
[soliloquy]
"you couldn't stop me if you tried"

[soliloquy] is the dialogue
between who one once
was    
is            
and will be            
again                

regret runs rapant
as an epiphany is reached
and the way is made for change.



you are my apparition
skeleton of my desire
silhouette of strong ambition
antagonizing my decline
fake smiles and lying eyes spell
out the word for what i am
a, derision of who i am now
ive been wrong, i need you now

ill never make you actual
ive come too far to know
what makes me soooo, unlike you
so unlike you

ive come so far and lived so long
never spent a single night alone
faced down my demons
and chased them into the night
but youre the face i need to show
thought with time, maturity would grow
couldnt make this, make this, make this
clearer if i tried